Friday, May 01, 2026

The Dark Reality of Being Gay in an Indian Family

Apr 29, 2026 | Dhiren Doshi-Smith grew up in East Ham, London, navigating the heavy expectations of his British Indian heritage and the strict cultural boundaries of his Jain community. Living with a large extended family above a shop, Dhiren realised he was different from a young age but quickly learned to mask his authentic self.

Surrounded by an environment where queerness was deeply taboo and "gay" was weaponised as a slur alongside compounding local racism, the space to be himself simply did not exist.

Carrying immense shame and the daunting expectation of a traditional arranged marriage, Dhiren lived a painful double life. It was not until his mid-thirties, against the heartbreaking backdrop of his mother’s terminal illness, that a profound turning point arrived. Witnessing the fragility of life and seeing his secret boyfriend lovingly care for his dying mother, Dhiren realised he could no longer merely exist. He had to finally thrive.

Choosing to step out of the shadows, Dhiren shed the grief of his hidden years to fully embrace his truth. Today, he is happily married to that same partner and thrives openly as a therapeutic counsellor and EDI corporate trainer, dedicating his life to supporting queer mental health in often hostile environments.

From overcoming his intense fear of visibility to famously fronting Pride in London’s billboard campaigns, Dhiren has transformed his deepest cultural trauma into his greatest strength. By sharing his powerful story, he actively works to dismantle the heavy shame carried by queer people of colour, proving that stepping into your authenticity leads to a beautiful, liberated life.